I want to enjoy the journey more!
When am I going to be happy with where I am as opposed to where I want to go? Not sure where this dichotomy will finally connect my dreams with the reality. It hurts more because the goal I’ve given myself isn’t really rooted in any one thing but relies instead on accomplishing certain steps along the way. Finishing school, just around the corner, getting into grad school/ getting a job.. financial resources to be able to do those things I love most.. going travelling, eating out with friends, going to funky dance parties… on top of paying for all the essentials like housing, internet, clothing; yes, in that order.
Next. This four letter word is hanging over all of us constantly.. what IS “next”? Damn if I know, but it interrupts my thoughts everyday. I’m not one of those poor saps who can’t handle the pressure of responsibility or am not on top of my work, has poor work/life balance, none of the above.. simply I am not completely satisfied with the status quo. Essentially I have nothing to complain about and spend my life of leisure enjoying the pursuits of any average 21 year old in the the big city.. but just not quite sure whats the point? Do you want to know the meaning of life? I’m not sure it exists. I think I will keep trying to question and pursue that utopic vision of happiness. One where I’m happy with my job, have financial means, free time to pursue hobbies, have a family and so on.
Sitting here I know spring is coming, I can feel it shinning through my windows, the birds are singing and I just want to know whats “next”. Summer?
I’m going to say goodbye soon and I think I’ve learned all those quintessential lessons that university should provide.
Love life: Don’t even want to go there. I imagine now that it was probably a monumental waste of time, but hopefully the experience will prove invaluable.
School: They give you shit marks to demoralize you, then you meet some amazing people who change your perspective about it all and rewards come in.
Friends: The ones who shape your outlook and help you grow during this most important time in your life. Basically if you are a douchebag– your friends usually are too.
This list could go on I’m sure… I just want to say I feel smart but equally stupid sometimes, as I’m sure everyone does. Point is keep your friends close and enjoy the ride.
I’m planning my trip to Europe this summer… that makes me very happy. I’m going to try and find myself on my solo journey. I expect to have some kind of epiphany around the 4th week while sitting at a little cafe in Prague haha. I can dream, can’t I?
1. You Can’t Hurry Love — The Supremes
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are you stopping by londonnn on this epic Eurotrip? it’d be so fun to see you! (unless you’re coming between july 12 — aug 10, i’ll be in indonesia haha)
and i know what you mean, about the niggling feeling of wanting ‘more’ or just feeling like this, whatever this is, still isn’t enough… but reading this post made me realize that i’m quite lucky to be able to say that most of the time i satisfy that void in my life every time i make something i’m proud of releasing into the world. i think that’s also why i love blogging so much!
stay happy tristan, and keep writing awesome posts like these x
Thanks Michelle! I think you’re the only person who reads my ramblings haha
I’m looking at flying from Toronto to Iceland and then on to the UK by the end of June. I’m meeting my Mom there to watch some Wimbledon Tennis action… so I’ll definitely come by for a visit! After that its on to Denmark
that sounds like an amazing trip… there are some cool electro festivals in iceland for summer, a friend went to one in reykjavic last summer said it was unforgettable. looking fwd to seeing you then!
everything is valuable, if it made you happy in the moment
. Happy St. Patricks Day Tristan! I’m sure you’ll create yourself wonderfully over there!
au rev!